Oh Gootness…
This time of year always stresses me out, if it not grades and school, its buying Christmas presents and planning my holiday vacation. I was hoping that this year was not going to be like the last 4 years, but it is turning out to be.
The past 2 years I have been in several challenging classes at Georgia State such as Organic Chemistry, Molecular Cell Biology, and Biochemistry all of which I have struggled with. I have always managed to pass these classes but it has taken a lot of planning and studying on my part. This year I really do not have any uber stressful, hard classes to worry about; however, I am applying to graduate school and im freaking out that I wont get in.
Dont get me wrong, I am super excited that I am finally graduating college with a BS in biological sciences, but I am wondering what is next. I am pretty much a planner, I like to know what I am doing today, tomorrow, and next month. With all of this uncertainty, I feel like my so called life is falling apart. All of these “what if” questions are running though my head and I would just like to have some answers and a plan for January of 2008.
I mean, should I be focusing my attention on creating a class schedule and looking for a part-time job that is flexible with school or should I be focusing my attention on obtaining a full-time position? And if so, where should I be looking for a job and who will hire me due to my lack of experience? I really want to get into a masters program but what if I do not? What am I going to do with myself? I love to stay productive monday thru friday but my current part-time job drives me crazy and I do not think I could work there full-time. Plus what I make is not a livable wage, even if I worked 40 hours a week.
My other stresser is Christmas with my family. This year at Thanksgiving, my moms side of the family decided to draw names. I got my cousins husband and I have no idea on what to purchase for him. I know I could simply pick up the phone or text my cousin Shiloh and ask her what he likes, but I want to try to come up with something on my own. I feel like asking Shiloh what he likes is basically cheating, its almost like buying a Simon mall gift card. Further more, I am going to San Francisco December 27 and I am trying to organize all of those activities. I need to get in touch with my family in the Bay area to see what time is a good time to visit and I also want to enjoy myself in the city. All of this is really putting me through it and I have been very emotional lately. In fact, this past saturday I broke down to my mom at Dillards in Atlantic Station (but thank gootness I did get to see Eric Dane from Greys Anatomy, that really cheered me up). Well I guess thats all the ranting and raving im going to do for now…
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Posted on November 28th, 2007 by David K.
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